Yesterday, Talmage and I met with my Oncologist. That sentence is still strange for me to say... MY ONCOLOGIST. I now belong to a group that I really had no desire to be apart of, but here I am.
She was very nice and apologized first for me having to be there. As a breast cancer survivor herself, she was very empathetic and seemed to be very knowledgeable and competent. We felt good talking to her. I had mixed emotions about being there, though. I was anxious to get started and at the same time I dreaded it. I think that was probably a pretty normal way to feel, but it was harder than I thought it would be. It seems like since the surgery and having the baby that it was all over. I feel so normal and good! So to volunteer for chemotherapy is a little hard to swallow, but I know it is the right thing to do. My treatments will start next Thursday (September 23, 2010) and I will go every 3 weeks for 4 cycles. Not too bad. The good news is that I will be done with it the first part of December and can enjoy Christmas! AND, the best news is she thought I wouldn't lose my eyelashes and eyebrows. I can't tell you how happy that made me. My hair is going for sure, but that is A okay! Luckily, it will be cold outside and I will just get some stylish hats.. or something. Now that yesterday is over and facing the reality of it all, I feel better. It will be alright.
I am just so grateful for the gospel. I know that I am being strengthened and supported by a loving Heavenly Father and by all of you. Thank you.
"Behold, God is my salvation; I will trust, and not be afraid; for the Lord Jehovah is my strength and my song; he also has become my salvation" 2 Nephi 22:2