Thursday, September 16, 2010

My Appointment with the Oncologist

Yesterday, Talmage and I met with my Oncologist.  That sentence is still strange for me to say... MY ONCOLOGIST.   I now belong to a group that I really had no desire to be apart of, but here I am.
She was very nice and apologized first for me having to be there.  As a breast cancer survivor herself, she was very empathetic and seemed to be very knowledgeable and competent.  We felt good talking to her.  I had mixed emotions about being there, though.   I was anxious to get started and at the same time I dreaded it.  I think that was probably a pretty normal way to feel, but it was harder than I thought it would be.  It seems like since the surgery and having the baby that it was all over.  I feel so normal and good!  So to volunteer for chemotherapy is a little hard to swallow, but I know it is the right thing to do.  My treatments will start next Thursday (September 23, 2010) and I will go every 3 weeks for 4 cycles.  Not too bad.  The good news is that I will be done with it the first part of December and can enjoy Christmas!  AND, the best news is she thought I wouldn't lose my eyelashes and eyebrows.  I can't tell you how happy that made me.  My hair is going for sure, but that is A okay!  Luckily, it will be cold outside and I will just get some stylish hats.. or something.   Now that yesterday is over and facing the reality of it all, I feel better.  It will be alright. 
I am just so grateful for the gospel.  I know that I am being strengthened and supported by a loving Heavenly Father and by all of you.  Thank you.

"Behold, God is my salvation; I will trust, and not be afraid; for the Lord Jehovah is my strength and my song; he also has become my salvation"  2 Nephi 22:2

7 comments:

  1. Danae-

    You are amazing! I've been touched and uplifted this morning reading about your experiences, your faith, and your trials. It is so easy to put up walls to protect our families and our emotions. Thank you for letting us inside your wall. As always you have inspired me. You make me want to be a little kinder, hug my kids a little longer, and take time to enjoy the journey I'm on. You've made me think about what is going on behind other walls and who might need my understanding and help. My love and prayers are with you and your good family. I look forward to future posts, updates, and good news!

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  2. You have been in my prayers every night..... I'm so sorry you have to go through this. I was once told only nice people got cancer..... I KNOW now that is true. Love you.

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  3. OKAY....YOU CAN DO THIS! I am very very amazed at your courage and faith and good attitude. You really are amazing. This will be done soon (in your own words). Your posts actually make me feel better when I should be making you feel better.

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  4. It's just a test, honey, for all of us - featuring you. I am so proud of you. This is a scary thing and you are looking it right in the eye. FAITH, COURAGE, STRENGTH. We'll be there with you - all the way - alongside the great Jehovah and the Lord God, Heavenly Father. They are aware of you and of this challenge. You have every right to ask for their promised blessings in accordance with their will.

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  5. You are an amazing woman! I greatly admire your strong faith and courage. Thank you for sharing your journey with us. You inspire me and make me want to treasure the everyday moments that pass by so quickly. I know your Heavenly Father is standing at your side. Our prayers are with you and your family.

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  6. "this too shall pass" is a long time family mantra. i bequeath it to you during this fall/winter. just think of what beauty spring will bring!

    sending constant prayers and love your way.

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  7. Sweet Danae, I look forward to reading your updates, it nice to know exactly what to pray for! I am thinking of you and praying for you every day, and keeping your name on the prayer roll here in AZ. I have read alot late that the way we endure our trials is what really matters, the way we lean on the Lord. You are doing a great job, and are so brave, esp for sharing your trial with us, I know the Lord is with you and your sweet lil family. Much love and prayers.

    Jan SKousen
    (dina's dear friend)

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