I know I need to post about my first Chemo treatment, and I will, but I couldn't let this experience be forgotten. I almost didn't post about it because of it's personal nature, but then I remembered this is my record of all that is and has happened. And this experience was too tender for me to not write it down.
The day after I had Emma, my doctor put me on a medication to help dry up my milk since I would not be able to nurse her. With just having a lumpectomy, my surgeon was worried that I would get an abscess or something that would cause complications at the surgery site. Also, with chemo in the future, breast feeding was just not going to work out. I was sad. I had a little mourning session and then accepted it for what it was. It would be alright. And it really was. However, the Lord once again was merciful to me. About 5 days or so after I finished with that prescription, I started to have milk let-downs. I was really surprised. This was about 3 weeks after I had given birth AND been on medication. After about two days of this, I decided and felt like it was happening for some reason and so I decided to try to nurse Emma - 3 weeks after she was born! It worked and together we had a very tender, loving moment. I was touched and recognized this as a tender mercy from the Lord. I got to have a small nursing moment with my daughter It was one of the most beautiful experiences that I will always cherish. And then my milk stopped... all on it's own.
The Lord is good to all: and his tender mercies are over all his works. Psalm 145:9